I wish i could..

The very first day i saw her, i felt something unknown. She felt like a song that i already knew would be my favourite. Her eyes did something to me that i can't explain. She caught me staring, and i smiled but never thought she would smile back.

Days passed by, we became close friends. Short messages turned into long conversations. I've never understood those 3 am chats concepts, but it became the happiest time of my day.

Feelings kept growing as i got to know her more. Her smile made me happy, her pain hurted me, his annoyance made me cry, her consolance comforted me . We had something pure between us which i can't explain in words, but i know she didn't notice me that way.

Many questions on my mind remained unanswered.

I wish i could express it.

I wish i could ask her, 'Why are you so important to me?’

I wish i could ask her, 'Even though i talk to many people, why your late replies kill me?’

I wish i could ask her, 'I don't crave for anyone's presence, but why your absence makes me cry?’

I wish i could ask her, ' I don't show my vulnerable side to anyone, but why can't i hide it from you?’

I wish i could ask her these questions.

I wish he would understand why am i asking these questions.

I wish I could say her, 'Be mine.’

I wish i could make her mine.

But i am afraid to do so, because if i do

I wish i don't lose her.